Here’s to the boy who loves blueberries, 

I hope you never ran out of sweetness and bland manner. 

Here’s to the boy who loves to sing and play the guitar,

I hope you never ran out of melody and high pitched notes.

Here’s to the boy who loves to be touched at his brows until he fell asleep,

I hope you never lost that peace in you and your warmness.

Here’s to the boy whom I once loved and still loving at present,

I hope you never ran out of love.

Here’s to the boy who might be reading this, 

I hope you never found a reason to leave. 

May 20, 2013 3 notes

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What if, in another universe, I deserve you?

Hear me out. There’s this philosopher from the 1890s named William James, and he coined this theory about “the multiverse” which suggests that a hypothetical set of multiple universes comprises everything that can possibly exist simultaneously.

Are you following? The entirety of space, time, matter and energy is all happening at once in different timelines: It’s the idea of parallel universes. Right? So okay, let’s presume the multiverse is real.

Well then, maybe somewhere in those infinite universes is one, or several, where I deserve you.

Maybe there’s a universe out there — happening now — where we end up together and when I close my eyes at night, I’m not dreaming the way a normal person would. Instead I’m seeing flashes of our lives in the multiverse. They’re not simple dreams because I miss you, right? They’re scientific, anachronistic visions.

For instance:

In this universe, I don’t want a family, but maybe in another, I’m more of the type to settle down. Maybe there’s a universe where you hold my hand while I give birth to our daughter in a white hospital room with pink flowers and fuzzy teddy bears on the window sill. Where we take family vacations and pose for dorky pictures in our neon bathing suits on the sands of a Florida beach. Where we curl up to watch a cheesy movie at the end of a long day in our big, green, suburban house once the kids have fallen asleep.

Maybe there’s a universe where we are middle-aged and taking our child to college and bickering over where to put her dresser or what posters she should hang up. Where you kiss her on the forehead ‘goodbye’ and we drive home in contented, proud silence, your fingers grazing my knuckles, our wedding rings glistening. Where we both have gray hair and we laugh and smile and hug and drink lemonade on the porch.

Maybe there’s a universe where that’s the life I want. Where I don’t second guess everything and I’m not afraid of commitment and of the future and of love. Maybe there’s a universe without all the noise in my head and the pride that makes me so fiercely independent and the coldness in my heart that I can turn on and off like a security fence.

Maybe there’s a universe where I’m the right person for you. Where I adore every nice thing you did for me without starting to resent you. A universe where you actually end up with someone who appreciates you. Where no one becomes a doormat. Where both of us can shed our baggage and curiosity and issues. A universe where we’re happy — without wondering if that happiness is some messed-up Jenga game ready to topple at the slightest quiver. A universe where we’re comfortable and sure, and we have cats.

Maybe there’s a universe where we fall asleep next to each other every night like spoons, like two innocent bunnies — my face buried in your neck, hugging your warmth — and we both don’t want anything or anybody else. Where we don’t want more, we just want each other.

Maybe there’s a universe where I don’t covet so much all the time and where I’m content and where I don’t wonder about picking up and moving to Japan without saying anything to anyone and where at this very juncture, I can just know I’ll always want to come home and cook dinner with you.

If you think of it all this way, then it’s like neither of us did anything wrong.

You just found me in the wrong universe. That’s all. This is, as they say, the darkest timeline. Everywhere else, nay, “everywhen” else — us in the Civil War, us in Ancient Egypt, us in the swinging ’60s — we are happy.

If this theory holds, well, by the law of averages, there had to be oneuniverse — just this one — where we don’t end up together. Here and now just happens to be it. If you think of it this way, nothing is our fault.

So see, that explains everything. We’re not together anymore because of the multiverse.

Well, isn’t that comforting?

If you’re sad, do like I do and just think of the other ‘verses. The ones where I believe in love and where I don’t hate myself and where I never feel the need to kamikaze relationships. A universe where we can have nice things. It’s helpful, right?

Because you could have loved me forever. And maybe in another universe, I let you.

May 18, 2013 6 notes

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I’m all outta luck but what else could I be?

I know he’s yours and he’ll never belong to me again.

I did him wrong.

So don’t brag,

Keep it to yourself.

I did him wrong.

I was never no, never no, never enough,

But I can try, I can try to toughen up.

I listened when they told me

If he burns you, let him go.

Change is hard, I should know.

I should know.

I should know.

May 16, 2013 10 notes

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16th day of the month. It’s supposed to be our day but I am here having a me time while my folks are at the nearby store. I hate how I am having a heavy heart. The heart that doesn’t know what to feel anymore. Exhausted of everything. Too tired of figuring things out. Too tired of seeing what I am not supposed to see. Too tired of suppresing. Too tired of everything.

Hi, I’m currently here at Starbucks Mezza, would you mind to come along and hear my stories?

May 16, 2013 2 notes

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You are

Thousands
Of miles
Away and
Yet you
Do more
Damage
On me
Than most
People
I have
Seen face
To face

May 13, 2013 119 notes

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theacclaimedcritics:

BOOK GIVEAWAY

Justin and John are hosting their first book giveaway! One of the 9 books can be yours and will be shipped from The Book Depository! The book depository ships anywhere!! I will randomly pick 2 Winners each gets to choose one book of their own. Contest ends on June 11, 2013.

Rules:

1. You must be following us: The Critics.
2. You must reblog this post.
3. You must feel comfortable giving us your address if you win.
4. Your ask box must be open in order for us to contact you.
5. If you are not in the US, you must reside in one of these countries: Click Here. 
6. The more you reblog, the more chances you get as I’m randomly picking.
7. Good luck and happy reading!

May 13, 2013 896 notes

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You can notice what a person feels just by looking at his eyes.

It’s uncanny that when I looked at those pictures of you and her, there’s no hint of happiness in your eyes. Just the feeling of exhaustion from all these running and cover ups.

May 13, 2013 4 notes

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